The Well
May 13, 1999
I’m going to relax today,
and put you out of my mind.
I’m not thinking of you
because …
I’m trying not to cry right now,
trying not to scream,
trying not to lose my cool,
trying to relax.
I’m trying to think distracting thoughts,
trying not to look up.
I know that if I look at you, my thoughts will melt away,
but once I look not to you
they’ll hit me like a shot.
I’m trying not to cry right now,
trying not to scream,
trying not to lose my cool,
trying to relax.
I wonder if you’re here today.
I wonder where you are.
I wonder if I’m here today.
I wonder where I am.
I’m trying to look down now,
trying not to think.
I’m trying not to cry right now,
trying not to scream,
trying not to lose my cool,
trying to relax.
I’ve pushed you from my thoughts by now,
and there’s a well that must be filled.
The water has rushed in I see.
I wonder where we went.
Oh, lord, please don’t let me cry right now.
Please, don’t let me scream.
Please, don’t let me lose my cool.
Oh, please, let me relax.
I’m trying not to cry right now.
I’m trying not to scream.
I’m trying not to die right now …
